Is it too strong of a comment to say that I think I hate it here? Going back "home" for the break made me realize how much it's not really home and how much I don't like this state I'm in, the figurative kind of state and the actual state. Am I really supposed to be here? I kind of don't want to be right now. I should be grateful for this opportunity to study, but I'm not and I don't like that I'm not.
I'm checking options at the moment, but very much in a mode of bolting out of here if need be. It's not too late to start over...somewhere else.
I didn't expect to be this "real" here (on this blog) but here I am. It's possible I've reached my threshold of frustration. What happens now?
One week to get through. I don't even like the fact that I look at this next week as something just to get through. That's not the attitude I want to have, but it's what it is...
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Hi Izzie. Sorry you're feeling kinda rotten. If it is any help, I don't know too many people who weren't in the same place at the end of the first semester. The end of the second semester is only somewhat better. But, for most who do gut it out, the time after that is pretty positive.
Did you feel this way after the first three or four months in Korea?
Nope, probably only hated Korea after the first full year. I guess I had a real honeymoon stage there?
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